im supposed to be working today. but something happened yesterday. oh God. WHY?

while im at work, my grandma came over to my house to look for me. ALL BY HERSELF. she left aunts office without letting aunt know and just got missing for dont know how long. she didnt know that im working. she just walked over. and then, i think she got lost? or what. she fell and she had abrasion on her both arms and two balaku on her head. and shes admitted to the hospital. all these happened while im still working. i surrendered my phone and so noone can get me.............. oh LORD!

ended work at 7pm and i go get my phone. i saw 11 missed calls. and at the same moment aunt called. i tot shes going to ask me to do other stuff. then she said tell me what happened. man! i dont know what to do. so i just cry. im so worried im so scared im so SCARED. my most beloved grandma.. CAME AND LOOK FOR ME coz SHE MISS ME too much. and ended up getting injured. she was reported missing and police were searching for her. and im working. i wasnt there for her. i dont know how she handle all herself. her emotions being lost and people sending her back to aunts place and all. i wasnt there. i WAS working instead. all these happened since 4+pm. and i only get to the hospital at 8+pm. oh GOD. imagine that few hours grandma needed me most.

my heart just dropped when i received the call. im really so scared. i cant take anyone else leaving me. this week is sucha bad week for me. im in my darkest moment coz of something. left me crying and thinking like crazy till rene was so upset with me and now my most important someone, my grandma. gosh! why does God wanna give me all these challenges at this time? how can i take it? ive not stopped crying since monday. oh man. why do i have got loadsa tears in me.....

i cant imagine myself having to face the first problem already. i cant imagine i have to feel the heartache to that first prob... i cant imagine my grandma staying in the hospital alone. last night she asked me to go home. and i went off i looked at her eyes. i can see that shes thinking and worried. i dont know if shes scared of being there alone.

im trying and learning to be a stronger person. someone told me trying and being is different. ya im not as strong but ive no choice but to be strong am i? just tell me to keep on keeping on for how long more.......................

thanks to rene for coming out on tue just for my sake. she has to stay home actually. its tues her family gathering. but she came out just for my sake. see how good she is to me. im blessed am i? we went shopping and i got myself spectacle. skirts and shirts and watch!! and guess what. we went far east and stayed at level one since 2+pm till 6+pm. just one level. and all we did was shop. haha. didnt eat lunch or dinner. haha. serene dear. thanks for being her for me just when i needed someone most. thanks so much. love you so much..

the following day. jo darling came over to ms and waited for me and headed down town together. shopped again and had dinner over at pastamania. chit chatted walked from cine to ps and back to cine. just talked. sat at cineplex and took pictures took neoprints. ill upload here some other day.. i love you too jo. thanks for being here too. thanks so much.

im clearing my last public hols at work. one day only... God.. please heal my grandma.. let not anything happen to her. amen

i think im a bad girl.. i only turn to God in my time of need. im selfish ehs. sigh.

ive decided to be a new me. im so not gonna let another someone get into my life.erm not for now.maybe as usual years later.. i had good memories with someone. im happy. but i was left to clear my heart and get back on track and have to settle my heart down all by myself. wow..i just hate to be left to zi shen zi mian? did i say it correctly? i hate it. ill never like it. i dont know how to go through the year with the old me. im so gonna move on. i will not cry for that anymore. i just want my grandma to be in good condition. healthy and happy.

i wish for myself to be happy too!! thou im still in my darkest valley. theres too many FIRST time this year. to my closest friendds. give me some time to get back on track. i promise ill be a better person and not weak okie. yes joanna? for saying im weak in that huh.

but anyway. thanks to my bestie and goodies for being here!you guys helped alot.. thanks so much. why does God give me problems i can hardly overcome but good friends who will stay by me to pick me up..

im happy! i got my enrollment result. i got into the school and course of my choice and i thank God that im a step more closer to my dream!

oh yes. one more thing. my beloved computer died on me! dAMN! all my pictures and my songs and my always in use software is gone! omg! and so im using my bros computer. it has nothing. no software to resize my pictures, no songs. nothing! oh man!! thats why its delaying the time for me to upload pictures here. aRGhh.. no pics? in my entries? how CCAN! how can it ever happen??RAHHHH......................

hospital later. bye world.be loved.

dearest world.

its sucha boring day at work. thank God that im on off tomorrow. haha! im so gonna go out and play. haa! my skins peeling already. looking damn ugly. my face is terrible. cannot take it. half white half dark. look sooooo weird. haha.

ive finally got the pictures over at phuket. and i shall upload some here. hee.


this is the resort we're staying in. Deevana resort.


pretty rachel and i waiting for roomm


ohhhh PARASAILLLLLLL!!!!! its rachel prepraring to parasail!!!


rachel and sherrie. look at the two pretty girls!! braided hair.. how beautiful!!


oh its me in the midst of braiding my hairrrrr.. i didnt load the outcome of how it look so i think it damn ugly. hahahaa..


its mee fred rachel and sherrie..


rachel me and sherrie


sherrie marcus rachel myself and fred


on our way to the beach!!


after jetskiing


at the back of tuktuk!


at patong seafood.






i so love this!


omg! i love this even more~! its pink!!!!!!


us!


125!!


one more timeeee.


marc myself and fred


SEE! how RED!!



i had fun over there!! haha

this is me. saw the red red skin?????

serene cheong is suppose to meet me at 1245pm. but this pretty lady is still AT HOME! so while waiting. i shall come and blogggggg.

went out with rene last night. towned. caught wolf creek. thats a psychotic show. the guy kill human! oh gosh! he torture them slowly by cutting them stabbing them and etc. disgusting. and its a true story. why would someone be so cold blooded?

im so burnt and its peeling now. gosh. was walking in town yesterday. people walking pass me will give me those-omg- look. and some ouch for me. and some just stared at me. so along the way i started to just say out loud to rene. saying- serene you know. i got burnt i got burnt. well this is to let those people know. maybe someone should design tops written on the front saying: why am i so red? at the back saying: cos i got sunburn. im hot. haha!

was slacking outside ps mac and chatted loadsa stuff with serene. i dont know why this woman always laugh at whatever i say and she wanted to hit me. gosh. i wanted to scream at her. haha. we had dinner over at my fav place- galileeandfriends. haha. i had the same dish. salmon spaghetti. haha. and she had ocean twelve.

my body is aching.. i cant walk properly. cant sit properly. ill just aiyoh arhhhh when i sit or stand up. when i walk ill sssssssssssssssss.. and rene is kind to just hold on to me. hahaa.thanks girl. haha

partying later partying later partying later!!!

hi world!

im back! im back! im BACK to SINGAPORE!

haha. well if some of you were wondering why ive not been blogging and where have i been. well i was at PHUKET. having fun relaxing and playing and etc.

im looking like a red lobster now. im red but not tan. pain everywhere but not as pain as yesterday lar.haha i wanted to cry while changing coz its TOO painful.. can you feel the pain im having my dear faithful readers?-ouch-

i went para sailing and jet-skiing. ask me how was it? hahah! its GREAT. so GREAT i so love it. i so freaking love it. especially jet skiing.. im totally in control of the jet ski. was so fast.. thou i hope it could go faster haha! its very fun. at that moment i just feel that im beginning to love the seawater more. haha. as some of you know, i dont really like seawater. haha. its so fun. so shiok! so cool so great. WOW! while i was doing parasailing and jet-skiing i was actually thanking God for that. haha! thank God for that wonderful moment wonderful time. parasailing was only less than 3 mins please. so how that short 3 mins left me thinking. haha! i was up in the air and think. haha. and felt so blessed.so blessed for every little thing.

even the seafood i had for the past few days. it was heavenly. so good! delicious! i finally had a taste of lobster again after so many years. see..thank God for that. haha! do you feel blessed if you were me? i felt so blessed. i worked and used the money i earned to go on a holiday and im able to enjoy all these. how good. and its my first time in my whole of 19 years of living, paying for my own trip, expenses all. wow! i feel so good. haha. thinking back, ive starting chionging at work right after my exams. till sun alrights, ive not rested. and i finally able to rest...and sun again, i shall start to chiong my one part of battle in life again. haha. so i shall still keep on keeping on yeah. haha.

went for thai massage. wooohhooo. its so good. thou ticklish and abit painful. but i love it. haha. painful coz that lady not very light hor. kneeled on me. my butt to be exact and my bone was pressing again that hard bed. painful can. haha! crack here and there. when it ended i felt so great. haha. she massage my whole body. haha! friends, go and try. its good. haha.

after these few days.. im really glad i met new friends. gosh two new friends are so funny so sweet so cute so loving so good so kind so nice so cool so pretty so everything! gosh. aint they just so good? i love my two new friends. haha thou i dont know if im able to see them again lar. haha! whatever is it.. im glad they stepped into my life once and befriended me! haha! im blessed! oh. why do i feel so blessed all the time huh? hahahaha!!!!

but once im back home. i dont know if i should get angry or wad. haha. well. i shall not get angry. if not got wrinkles then ill look ugly haha! i left the house with my bed neatly packed the house not so untidy. i did housework the day before i left. and -jiao dai everything before i leave-. and im back. in less than a week. its messed. wow. should i still feel blesseD? blessed to do things again and again and for godsake! im freaking pissed lar. dont know how to not get angry!!! RAHHHH!!!

my butts aching coz of jet-skiing ytd haha. everything was good but the wave just spoiled it. the other jet ski hit the jet ski im in and gotta pay for the repair all. it aint cheap and fred is paying. was so bothered over it. but well.. wait till pays out!!! hehe. pays coming out coming out coming out..

oh.. and i went to get my hair braided. i think i looked ugly with that parting the lady gave. oh well. at least ive tried it.. and its fun i feel haha and theres is little girl over at the beach, her name is phin. wow. shes a pretty baby alright. so cute. but she likes to pinch people! had a chance to take TUK TUK-their so called taxi?- haha. i love the resort we were in. its the deevana resort.. its good. i love the rooms. haha! but that place has got many mosquitoes!!!

went there with my favourite -miss you- hairband. and got back leaving my beloved there. gosh.. i forgot abt it. sigh. nvm..

and took a cab home. and i cant believe i almost leave my luggage in the cab. i said bye to the driver and turned and faster turned back saying shit i forgot about my luggage. haha!

was out with rene on mon for kboxing over at my workplace. hee. was there since 12+pm.. sang till 5+6pm. wow!! haha. advantages of working there huh? haha! i miss rene so much! i miss jo too!! i miss you two!!!

i had fun i had fun i had fun!!!!!

phew~

im finally home after working like crazy. its been a crazy weekend. why are people queueing when the clock has yet to hit 11am? and some customers really like to tell lies. they will come and tell the servers that the receptionist told them that they could sing till 7pm. when the last call paper clearly written that they have to leave like at 6pm! and the receptionist only told them that if we do not need rooms we wouldnt last call them. so when we last call them isnt it OBVIOUS that we need rooms? and we really love to let all our customers enjoy and sing as long as they would love to. but we have to do our job too.. if we dont last call or whatever.. we will ganna. scoldings or whatever shit. and more. some customers know clearly that they have to leave at 6pm and they didnt and we, servers didnt last call them coz we are not in desperate need of rooms so its okie that they can sing as long. but when i went to last call them telling them that the time is up. they can reply me saying last song?some! even continue singing. till ive no choice by being a little rude saying.. erm. your actual time is .....pm one and i'll just stand outside and wait for them to LEAVE.and its not that i wanna be rude or whatever, its them leaving me with no choice. and its not that they didnt know the time they have to stop. they, each room has a paper stating clearly in black and white saying how much they'll have to pay and what time they'll have to leave. so CLEARLY. and its with them.. so what the hell are they telling us? so why does the receptionist give the paper for? for the sake to hold and throw meh?

okie thats what running thru my brain the whole time today. haha. well thats work...madness..

and im finally freee for at least a week! thank God man. haha. finally. my long awaited week. to just relax and not work and not worrying or stress.. its just RELAX... oh.. im soooo happyyy!

im free tomorrow.. anyone wanna hang out with me? my dear fellow buddies, goodfriends, sweethearts,dearests,bestie.. heee.. call me alrights. ill be waiting.. hahaha..

FD3? nelson.......................................*screams* nelsonnnnnn............

was out with xinxin dearest for dinner over at galilee&friends last night. im late for i dont know how long and poor xin have to wait for me with empty stomach. she hasnt eaten after breakfast. im so sorry for letting you wait. the next time we play, i will wait for you instead alrights. haha!

after dinner. we decided to catch Rumour Has It. starring JENNIFER ANISTON! oh gosh. shes a beau alrights. love her hair.. her eyes.. wow.. sucha a pretty babe. haha. well. we wanted to watch Final Destination 3 but...... we didnt manage to get the tickets lar. to my dearest xin. my buddy is treating me to that show. so can we change our movie on our playday to big mama2? or underworld or etc? please..... -pulling ur shirt- haha.

went to meet jo dearest after work today! haha. and shes falling sick. poor girl. and im bad.. haha i brought her to i duno the name of the place and we had fried food. oh. im so sorry.. haha.get well soon alrights.

well at work... hmm. i really dislike that dumbo bartender over there. hes such an.... AHHHH.. oh well...... forget it.

nelson nelson... dont forget tmr huh.. and rene rene dont forget monday huh.and gecko gecko dont forget sun or mon huh.and jo...ill make myself free next next week alrights. haha!

jo, rene, geck, ps, xin xin, janesis can we go out someday to PLAY??????? its holiday for u all right??????? lets play!!!!!!!!!!!!

i want to play i want to play i want to play i want to play!

hi world!

haha. im back im back. im back!! got home around 8pm and started doing some stuff at home. bathed and poof im outta the house. alone to the 7-11 and got myself 2 bottles of vodka ice. haha. omg. this vodka ice not nice one. haha! i wanted to show my ic to the girl but she said im so confident guess theres no need to view at my ic. haha i was like thanks man! for that trust. haha. im just too bored and i wanna do something. so i went and walked everywhere and its wednesday.. so.. i shall club at my own home! hahahahaa! aint i creative? hahahahahhaah!

work went fine. had only chez fries for the entire day. totally have got no appetite. haha. and its a busy day. whats with the STudents? no school today? how come theres so many student at kbox? haha. its a wednesday. tot i would be a slack day at work. but then.. it turned out to be a busy day. haha.

regarding that dumbo bartender. he said im a poor slave today. darn! i tell him off. i said watch your words. im not a SLAVE. and den he shut his mouth. haha. and den hes really dumbo lar. he knows that we had run out of watermelon juice and he needa get it done as in to cut the melon and blend it lar. den.. he told me he dont know and ARGHHh.. when theres orders from customer like half an hour ago..watermelon juice somemore. and dumbo did nothing. was waiting for server to go and handle. i was like.. can i just slap him so he know wad he can actually do? its HIS job man. to let US know that theres no more melon JUICE. and he didnt. aRghh.. and its not that theres no melon today lor!!!!!!! rahhhhh!! oh God.. add some wisdom to his brain!!!!

i miss my dad my bro my granny and my maid. i miss the company i always had. i just miss it so much. i miss the laughter the joy i had with ****. and all. i jus miss it so much.

theres one idoitic dumbo bartender over at kbox today. i mean everyday. haha.

hes just one ass that everyone may not like. having fair tender skin that makes me feel like hes those spoiltbrat at home. being insensitive to others feelings and not appreciative of what others had done for him. hes such as ass. and he was only employed just RECENTLY. can you see how bad a newbie can be?how sickening he is. and his GL attitude. totally suck.

well. i greeted him politely in a happily manner like i always greeted others. he was kinda shocked and asked why am i a so happy kinda person. my reply was im always likedat. and its always that i would start getting hungry at around 1230pm at work. so ill start asking what anyone wants to eat for lunch. and i went to ask that dumbo. and he said what im gonna eat just get the same for him. and so.. its a "fastfood" day at kbox. everyone had macdonald's for lunch. so i got him doublechez and ice lemon tea. and he! not saying thank you or whatever. i wouldnt mind. but!! he came out of the barside and said im silly that i got the doublechez and lemon tea. and said about coke thingy. so i replied.. no i got lemon tea coz non of us servers at kbox can consume ICE LEMON TEA at KBOX, its a rule, the DO and the DO NOT.. and i just commented that aiya stupid people will get coke. coz we are able to drink it at kbox for FREE wadd. and he replied ya.. like you and he walked off. SOOOO that dumbo had just indirectly said im stupid. damn dumbo. i was like hUH? i helped you to get lunch and this is what i got? i was like.. pissed. but well. nvm. i shouted to a friend that he is an ass. wuahahaa. i shall not help him to get lunch anymore.

and jap green tea and podka green tea look the same so i asked him which is which and know whats his reply?" look at the receipt" i was like. how would i know which is the one. den i saw one w/o ice. so one of the tea w/o ice is the jap green tea lar. and den he laughed. together with the other attitude bartender. that other one is also the other idoit. sigh. when i first joined. he said im a failure coz my goal is to enter a poly. and got upset with me. for i dont know wad. aint he weird? both laughed at the same time. and i just said. whats so funny? oh well. thats the bartender over at kbox. totally suck.

met jo deary at tbp after work. miss her soooooo much.. haha. well. she met me to look at me eating. haha! and chatted for a little and its time for home. haha! sucha shooorrttt meettt uppp.. can you meet me for a longer dinner next time. but not you looking at me eating lars. maybe next time round i look at you eating lor. hahahahaha!

wanted to meet rene deary also.. butt.. ive forgotten that she has to go for her family dinner which fall on tueday everyweek. called her .. den.. sadly she cant meetttt.. oh well. some other time. rene.. you know.. i need to talk to you..

my brother cooked. i dont know whats the name of the dish. coz i forgotten all abt it. but its a nice one. thou abit too salty. but i like the cheezy part of the chicken..

i miss schooollll

i seriously agree to a friend about the management and etc at kbox.

its my off day today and i din know about it. so jessie me got up early as usual to get prepared for work. having a feeling that its my off day today but i wasnt sure. and ive no idea why didnt i call up the outlet to ask. oh well. and i reached my workplace and captain asked: Jessie! why are you here? so i replied to work. haha! and looked at the schedule and damn! im on off! sigh..

its so last minute. schedule wasnt out yesterday. and i didnt call back to ask. so its my mistake lor. i should have ask. now.. my off day? nothing planned. noone to go out with. nothing i could do. sigh. what a wasted day huh.........

my new weeek!!!! i was even telling myself that its a brand new week. its gonna be a good new week. thats what i told myself this morning!! but now i feel that its gonna be a brand new long sian week! imagine.. having off on mon.. and ive to work till next week.. prob next weeks off is on wednesday. so ive to work like NINE pathetic days!!!! oh God.............. strength to be within mee!!!!!!!! i shall keep on keeping on again.......... hahaa.

tell me.. what can i do on this off day of mine? nothing planned. nothing........

-sweats-

i started running about at work the moment i stepped into the place. people coming in by 11am to sing. walking as fast as i could. run like mad till im sweating in the airconditioned place. its fully packed over at work today. i can hardly slack. but well. i enjoyed the busy kinda work, coz it makes time pass faster and i wouldnt be free to think about other stuff to keep myself feeling bothered. so i guess its a good thing to be busy after all.

got home and tried on my bro's cooking. wow. i think he aint a bad cook after all. haha.

sweet beginning bitter ending? is that true jo?tell me....

am i really stupid? am i really a blur queen? am i really that easy to be taken advantage of??

its vday yesterday and i really really had a great time. my first foremost vday. loved the company i had. loved everything i was given and the dinner over at chijmes was a really great one. great food they served. great atmosphere over there. i just loved it. but i guess the price was abit too much? thou i dont know how much it is. but i felt the heartache. thought i could only see places like that on tv, dining and people singing right beside the table and all. its so great. its so great. ate the chocolates i was given, wow its great. its sooo nice. its realllly nice.. the flowers..so beautiful. i cant bear to see it die.. i wanted to keep it refrigerated but my bro say it will die. sigh. if God were to create flowers that wouldnt die. real flowers that wouldnt die. how great it would be huh? haha. and if God were to create teleportation, it'll be so good. haha! overall. i love this vday so much. haha. i miss the pasta.. hmmm.. yum yum.

was at work today and time passed really fast. haha. wasnt very busy today. had BK for branch and know what. i was eating and i cried. sobs. i shall not write my reason here. i think its the song thats playing lar. make me think soo much. anyway. i broke a glass at work this noon and i hurt myself while i was mopping the floor. darn that mop..argH. its like long long mop was broken into half and its sharp and i just take it and mop and man i press my palm on it and OUCH that sharp thing went and cut my skin! super pain ahs.oh well soon i'll be healed haha!

shit. i think i needa get my weight down. thou it did not increase or decrease. i feel fat man. and ppl are saying im fat. are they blind? or im really fat?

i gave milky away and tigger had been meowing all day long. i wonder if its coz that he couldnt find milky or what. poor boy..

i wonder if its good to do reflections. oh well. ive been always thinking. i think i shouldnt ask for so much. i should be contented with what i have and what im given. im contented with my life now. so blessed. im greatly blessed with good friends. im blessed with having everyone around me, good or bad. i just feel so blessed. for whatever had happened in the past im blessed to be who i am now. i wonder what purpose does God planned for in my life. how many more difficulties ill meet and how many problems i can overcome. and again i shall tell myself to keep on keeping onnnnnn...

did my dear faithful readers enjoyed their vday? i hope you all did.

be blessed dear world!

its VALENTINESSS DAY!!

happy valentines dear worlddddd

alrights. been busy these few days so didnt blog. haha. busy with what? working and going out. haha.

basically ive got nothing to blog la. these few days i would log in blogger and ill click on posting and my mind went totally blank. nothing to write. nothing to share? life had been like routine. work and home everyday. so everything seems the same. what for write? haha. but well. i still love blogging lars.

been out searching for skirts but i dont seem to find any. haha coz i dont really like some of them lars. or some of the designs or material aint good. haha. so girls, any good places to intro that sells nice skirts ???

well. ive finally register for my higher nitec course. i registered at two places. one at clementi and one at bishan. hopefully ill get to the clementi one. coz bishan, SO FAR lar. haha. as some of you who know me, i cant wake up on time one.

guess life would be challenging this year? i might have to work and study at the same time. have to take care of myself coz of financial constraints or maybe dad thinks im old enough to take care of myself? hurhur. so God. can i be a kid forever? haha!!!!!! oh well. whatever it is, im sure im strong enough to overcome.. i shall keep on keeping on.

was out with xin deary. went to catch constant gardener. that show.. erm. not sure its because im tired or the show is tooooo long or what. i wanted to sleep in the show. haha. went to starbucks at johnlittle and had some photoshoot. haha! oh well its US man. haha. i love taking picturess.. eventhough im with that ugly thing on my lips. im still me alright. haha!

so here are the picturesss..























and below are pictures taken when xin and shan are at my place. hahaha








LOOK! that thing on my lipppppp!!!!!




they? happy? me? im not!! hahahaha










kelian de wo men! hahaha


dou ji yan! hahahahah


shan n i cant make the eye without the help of our fingers. haha!


im blessed to have them loving me!



thats all! enjoyyyy

and again, happy valentines!!!!

be blessed dear world!!

oh well..

the swell subsided and the wounded part is still in the process of healing. why wounded? hehe. jessie me fingers are itchy. i went to squeezed it. gees.. so my lips aint swollen already. and soon enough ive gotta be back to work. awww. how sad huh.. cant i just relax and play longer? haha.

dad flew back to taiwan this afternoon. went and sended him off. grandma came along the way to send dad off. she was kinda sad and worried for i dont know what. she cried and man she made me cried SILENTLY in the car. i see her weeping. seems like wanna say something but she dont know how to say it. so she showed that bothered look.

dad called at around six to report that he's safe and is home(taiwan). im so touched that he actually called once he landed. how sweet is he. haha! but he greeted wrongly. he said gd morning when its suppose to be gd evening. oh well. hes old. -evil grins- haha!

jo darling.. pls pls pls do drop by my place this friday alrights. teach me how to **** it. darn i need to learn it fast. haha! well. youve got no choice coz you promised~ and as ive said i'll pay for ya cab fare. haha! love you so much! hahaha

been working all the time.. and finally have the chance to stay at home and not going to work. i realised im very used to working. coz i feel weird when im at home. i dont know what can i do at home. and i keep walking around my home to look for something to do. all i did was walked to the kitchen stare at anywhere and walked back to my room and stare at this computer..........

was watching tv and i realised ive lost touch with the tv programs. oh man. i din know abt the xiao yuan superstar thing lor. and what else? i dont know la. im lost. haha. oh.. desperate housewives are BACK! im so gonna watch it~ hahahahahahaa! what about charmed? still on tv?

i want to go shopping!! i want to go and play!!! i want to have fun!!!!

omg!

jessie me is having 2nd outbreak of chickenpox. well. no lar. according to ma doctor, he says that the virus in my body during the time of chickenpox when i was in primary four wasnt cleared. so once in a few years i will have the same problem. well the prob now is that my lips are swollen just one side lar. and its itchy and i can hardly talk properly. pronounciation suck. and it has water in it. totally suck. doctor says it'll spread. sigh. so i cant meet anyone now. he says close contact with. and i cant share food or whatever. so dear friends.. i cant meet any of you for awhile.

and coz of this stupid poxy thingy. i took mc from work. and i took 3 days. how good. unpaid leave. darn.. i look like a pig now. my mouth is like popping. and its so ugly. hurhur!!!! but well. doc says it aint a very serious matter. so.. its okie lar.

coz of this pox.. i spend close to forty bucks on it. i went to buy 3 lip balm and one 18 bucks lip balm. how good ehs. ARghh.... heartpain... waste my money. hurhur..

pls pray that ill get healed really soon....

dear world.

miss me? haha. ive been lazy to update this bloggie. oh well. i shall post somethings here......

firstly. i really miss that miss jo. aRgh. when will you be free man?

secondly, after seeing rene's skin after tanning session.. im super tempted to get tann.

thirdly. im tired.. just got home from majong session over at jols place. so so tired.......

lastly. take care dear world. haha!

be blessed.

everyone's happily bai-ing nian while im sadly working.

im pissed when im at work. i dont wanna work lar. felt as if im like an EXTRA when im there. so many servers.

i cant believe that someone was at the bar counter and saw the drinks that has yet to be served to the customer. that someone actually asked the bartender to call for me to pick the drinks and serve it. JUST WHEN THAT SERVER SAW THE DRINKS AND DID NOT PICK IT UP. and said ive got nothing to do MA. hello? does THIS SERVER has something to do also? besides TALKING? i was upset. i keep asking myself why why why? why must this someone be likedat. cannot take it. i went to the toilet and cry. im wondering if KBOX really need servers now. or they are just wasting manpower. wasting time. thank that supervisor of mine for letting me work till the 26th so i can earn. but i cant take all this shit man. i cant believe that a close friend can be a stranger now. friends, tell me.. can you? i cant lor. people change that fast ehs. this feeling totally suck. dreadful time at work. so if that server can do that so does it mean i can also? when i see that server talking, im in the bar, saw drinks aint served, i ask the bartender to call for that server la? can i?

second person who made me cried on CNY. how good ehs. thanks man.

im not in the good mood. im feeling mooodddyy.

dear world. ITS CNY'S EVE!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR people!

thank God for this precious off day im given. haha. ive been working non stop for the past nine days and im totally bored of it. no mood of keep wanting to continue. but well. who aint tired and bored when they're working? i cant take it. its like, even if theres nothing to do, i must look for something and do it. but i totally have nothing in mind. all the things i know that havta be done, its done. so, the talkative jessie went to the CASHIER counter and started talking. in the end got scolded lar. one thing i dislike was, if i did anything wrong, scold me. dont scold my friend for my mistake. being like this, your torturing me. but well. i expect nothing too much from the worldly world. -sigh-

dads back from taiwan. goodness. he look old. i see wrinkles. its like in just a year, ive not seen him. and hes back now, i guess my dad is really old already. hurhur. my papa is always young in heart huh. haha!

Thursday was the happiest day and the most PRECIOUS day i was given. know why? coz i got home after work, after "torture" at work, got home and guess who i see? i saw my beloved grandma and my beloved brother and my beloved dad at home! and i felt so blessed. i felt so great seeing the people i love and loves me being together at our own home. i seldom get the chance to have this moment alrights. people who know jessie, you know how seldom hor..... haha. anyway. im really glad. haha!

finally had a talk with my supervisor last night. and the final day of mine at the workplace will be on the 26th feb. its coming. and it'll soon be march and soon, im gonna be a student again! haha how good. so to some of you who wants to be served by me, come by the 26th! haha.

i miss joanna darling! please meet me soon alrights? jo darling. i dont call you doesnt mean i dont care about you, or dont love you and doesnt mean you can also dont call me okie. so start calling now alrights. haha! so, love me? care about me? start calling! update me about your life alrights. i want to know. missyousomuchdarling!

why do the world consist of mean guys and guys who love hurting girls? why do the world consist of guys who'll go after a girl, sweet talk and convinced the girl of going into a r/s, saying so much of those convincing words making the girl slowly fall for the guy and just when the girl's willing to give it a try and believed in him and now he just push her off now? oh God, why? when guys says love you to someone, do they really mean they love? or isit just words? i wonder.... but well.. words are cheap. why would someone actually break this fragile girls heart huh? alrights. just if your wondering if its happening to me, its NOT okie. haha. jus some questions to my wonders. haha.

im happy.

alrights. daddys coming home tomorrow. haha. miss him like crazie love him like mad. omg. haha. i wanna hug him tight tight ahs. haha. but im working! oh GOD! hurhur. i have only one pathetic off day that falls on the eve! hur hur!

im gonna upload SOME pictures. taken last December. hmm. i dont really remember when is it. but some was taken when rene was sad and i went to accompany her and drank a little and took pictures in the toilet after. haha. was rotting at esplanade. haha.

next was.. erm.. countdown when dearest bestie rene and i were looking high and low for each other.

den.. went to dine at Galilee and Friends at Cineleisure. took pictures with rene.

thats all i guess. haha

what did i do today? the same thing. work. i hate to work. its getting more and more sucky. i msged my supervisor this morning about what i want. so its up to him to decide. all ill do is sit and wait. hahaha.

and guess what? im getting my pay cheque tomorrow! hahaa.

okie here are the pictures.


this is me after drinking just one bottle of vodka ice. i looked redish yes? haha. i think that colour look healthier. haha


while chatting, im bored. so i started snapping again. hahahaha!


nice bo? hahaha!

then, rene and i went to the toilet over at esplanade. and started taking pictures again..


take one- i seldom take pictures with my teeth shown one okie..


take two.


take three.


take four.


take five.


take six.


take seven.


last!

NExt countdown..


rene myself and bestie! the two important people in my blessed life!


me myself and i


rene and myself.


one more time..

then.. we were at Galilee and Friends for dinner.


this taste like HEAVEN! trust me man. haha i love OREO mudpie!


same to this.. itsss YUMMIE!!


rene ordered oreo mudpie and i ordered ice cream waffle.






im all ready to EAT!




look how happy rene is! shes enjoying her mudpie!haha


oh.... its heaven!




i love this! how nice!!!!!!!!!!






finished dinner and had photo taking session again.



den to the toilet..





thats all~ enjoy

lastly.. i love you all..... faithful readers~! haha.